As I sat down to write today, I noticed that my final blog post before my divorce was about hope. When I wrote that post two years ago, hope meant something different to me as my focus was on building a family with my then-husband. We had endured years of infertility and loss, and gone … Continue reading Hope (2 Years Later)
Author: Amelia
Hello From the Other Side
Hello there - It's me, Amelia. It's been quite some time since I last wrote a post, and let me tell you, so much has changed. Like almost everything. But I'm back, stronger than before. And more single than ever. That's right - it's been exactly one year since my marriage legally dissolved at the … Continue reading Hello From the Other Side
Hope
Tonight my husband and I started a new family tradition - lighting an advent candle each Sunday leading up to Christmas. The advent theme for tonight was "hope". When reflecting upon this timely theme, I can confidently say that today, I have hope for the present and hope for the future. Through all of life's … Continue reading Hope
That one time I ran a marathon
After our third miscarriage in September 2015, I decided I needed something to take my mind off all the grief that had accummulated. I tried hard to avoid facing that fact that we had experienced yet another miscarriage, so naturally I signed myself up for a marathon and mapped out a 5 month training schedule. … Continue reading That one time I ran a marathon
Love me some tats
I love tattoos. I love that they can represent someone or something or some experience and can become symbols and reminders. For me, my five tattoos each represent a piece of me, a piece of my life. And let me tell you, they are fairly addictive. My first tattoo is a small inch-size Jesus fish … Continue reading Love me some tats
“I’m sorry, but there’s no heartbeat.”
April 12, 2017 was one of the worst days of my life. After weeks of bedrest, we were shocked that our baby's heart had stopped beating at 10weeks 1day old - signaling our 5th miscarriage. I can remember April 12th clearly, or at least I remember feeling the blow of loss hit us once again. … Continue reading “I’m sorry, but there’s no heartbeat.”
It’s Ok to Say “Things are Shitty Right Now”
We all do it. When someone asks us "how are you?", most of us quickly reply "good, how are you?". It's a pretty trained and non-emotional response. Yesterday at work I passed a colleague in the hallway and he said "hello" and I responded, out of trained habit, "good, how are you?". I did a … Continue reading It’s Ok to Say “Things are Shitty Right Now”
You Are Not Alone
Going through infertility and miscarriage can sometimes feel very lonely. Typically people don't talk about their struggles or losses, which in turn creates this taboo topic and makes you feel like you are alone. But the truth is that if you are walking the path of infertility or miscarriage, please know that you are not … Continue reading You Are Not Alone
Book Recommendation: The Infertility Journey
After our fourth loss, I was searching for answers to the miscarriages and I wanted to arm myself with information before going back to see our infertility doctor. I found “The Infertility Journey” by Dr. Tarun Jain on an Amazon search, and I’m sure glad that I did. It’s a fairly comprehensive book that’s an … Continue reading Book Recommendation: The Infertility Journey
What Happened Next – Losses 2-4
After our first miscarriage in September 2014, I was eager to start trying again. I rushed through the grieving process and tried to ignore what had happened. My OB said that we needed to wait three full cycles before we starting trying to conceive - I needed to give my body time to heal after … Continue reading What Happened Next – Losses 2-4