Hello there – It’s me, Amelia. It’s been quite some time since I last wrote a post, and let me tell you, so much has changed. Like almost everything. But I’m back, stronger than before. And more single than ever.
That’s right – it’s been exactly one year since my marriage legally dissolved at the Jackson County Courthouse. You’d think there’d be a nicer, gentler way that the legal system would label a divorce. Like a clause that’d say “I’m sorry you’re going though this shitty part of life” or fine print that notes “Don’t worry, you’ll be ok after all this paperwork is done and paid for”. But no. Did you know that the divorce document that a lawyer drafts up and sends to the courthouse is called a “Judgement of Dissolution of Marriage”? 
Woah. Judgment. Dissolution. Sounds like I’m Dororthy standing in front of the judgement of the Great and Powerful Oz. Fire and strobe lights and all. It also reminds me of things that we know are meant to dissolve, like bath balms and toilet paper. Not a marriage. Not my marriage.
I don’t think many people go into marriage thinking it will end up in divorce, even though statistics tell us that at least 50% of marriages don’t make it. It’s like we all look around at our friend group and hope we aren’t the half that pulls the short straw. We know mathematically it could be us, but we believe it’s a foreign concept to our own relationship.
I’ve done more crying, questioning, praying, hugging and growing over the past 18 months than I ever thought possible. And I plan to begin to share some of what I’ve learned, and what I’m continuing to learn, by re-committing to this blog. I’m committed to pressing on and remaining hopeful and faithful for the future. Never did I expect to hear “I love you but I’m just not in love with you anymore”, and now from the other side of that life-altering phase, I can confidently say that I am a stronger, more self-aware and beautiful person. I love myself and that self-love is my main focus and priority.
I hope that you’ll come along with me on this journey forward. I know you are going through some tough shit right now, too. It sucks. But we can do hard things (thanks sister Glennon). We are amazing, beautiful, brave. YOU are amazing, beautiful and brave. And we will continue to press on.
See ya real soon 🙂
Pressing On 